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Oct 27, 2005 15:15:59 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Oct 27, 2005 15:15:59 GMT -5
im not gonna...maybe if alyssa (er...) hadnt convinced me to dump him last november things wouldve worked out, but not anymore, melissa and i did catch him looking at me a lot today, and im sure he still likes me, but i dont like him anymore. i mean, i do like him as a friend, but yeah...
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Oct 29, 2005 18:38:58 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Oct 29, 2005 18:38:58 GMT -5
what i hate about myself though is how jealous i get. when i heard hondo asked out karla, i got jealous. when i heard zack asked out danielle, i got jealous. when i heard hondo asked out mackenzie, i got jealous. when i heard cameron asked out danielle (different danielle lol), i got jealous. when i heard hondo asked out ariel, i got jealous. and the weird thing about the cameron-danielle thing, and the zack-danielle thing, i didn't even like cameron or zack, i just got jealous. and you know, we just took a big step...and like, last year, bf/gf meant practically nothing (lol), but now, i mean...you should see cameron and danielle! i don't know why i'm jealous, i mean, they are one of the cutest couples i know! they sit right next to each other every day at lunch, hang out together at recess, weekends, etc. when i dated hondo, i almost never sat by him at lunch, i always sat by karla and samantha, but sometimes, if karla or samantha didn't get their before hondo, he would sit by me, but i actually tried to avoid it. i never hung out wiht him at recess or weekends either. he did take me to the movies 3 times, but that's about all the "hanging out" we did. another thing about cameron and danielle is they're a lot alike...for example, they both love soccer.
and now...i just want what cameron and danielle have...
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Nov 1, 2005 14:51:02 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 1, 2005 14:51:02 GMT -5
I have to go pick my sister up from school in like, 15 minutes, so I can't post the dream I had last night right now, but I can say what happened at the end of the day today. Ever since our [latest] breakup, our conversations have been short and awkward. Today, like always, I got to the locker first. He said something, I don't remember what, but it sounded so much like Zack Bishop. I turned around, expecting Zack, but it was Hondo. I sighed, and said, "Oh, it's you. You sounded like Zack Bishop." I turned back around and he said, "What?! That is so cold!" I said, "What? You did!!" He said, "I do NOT sound like Zach McQueen!" I said, "You idiot! Can't you hear?! I said BISHOP!" I rolled my eyes and turned back around. He said, "Oh, okay. If you want to hear what Zack McQueen sounds like, just hum the Zelda theme song." I said, "Hey, I sit by him in pre-algebra, and he sings a song. It is so annoying!" By this time, almost everyone was gone and I wouldn't be surprised if he missed his bus. But, we continued to talk. He said, "What song?" I said, "We Will Rock You." He said, "Oh my god! I said, "I know!" I then looked at my watch, and said, "Oh, look at the time. I got to get the hell out of here, I'm late for Boy Meets World!" I didn't wait for him to say goodbye, I just turned around and left. Now, the dream is wayyyy more interesting, but I'll post that when I get back!
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Nov 1, 2005 16:48:06 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 1, 2005 16:48:06 GMT -5
Here's the dream... I stuck a little note inside our locker that said "To: Hondo" and on the inside it said "you make me so confused." After Science, he showed it to me and said, "I got this and okay, what?" I said, "You know, I don't know what that means, because you make me so confused! Maybe YOU should be the one to answer that one because YOU'RE the one confusing me!!!!" I then ran to Pre-Algebra as quickly as I could and found Heather, Rachel, and Julia, my best friends. I started crying and said, "I put the note in our locker." They all said, "Well, what happened?" I said, "...I don't know. I was too mad to tell. I yelled at him, and I wouldn't be surprised if he never wants to even have eye contact with me again." Rachel said, "Karissa, listen to me. Just forget about Hondo. If somewhere down the line you guys get together again, that'll be cool, but, if not, I know you can get over him. And plus, girl, you can do better than him!" I said, "Thanks Rachel." Then, Julia, Rachel, Heather, and I had a "group hug." *lol* ;D Then, I tried to ignore Hondo, but I just couldn't, I mean, come on, we're locker partners! At lunch, he said he needed to talk to me. I said, "What do you need now?! Just another exuse to make me more confused?!" "I still love you!", he shouted. I woke up right then. I don't know what the heck that dream meant. I couldn't get back to sleep, and it was like, 4:30 or 5 in the morning. It scared me half to death, because, today, I was planning on telling him that I was over him. But, just like I said in the dream, confusing little boy!!!
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Nov 3, 2005 14:36:22 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 3, 2005 14:36:22 GMT -5
I didn't tell my friends that dream, however, I chose to tell them this dream from last night...
We were having an elementary school reuniun at our old school, Kolb. I was swinging on one of the three swingsets. In front of me was Hondo, but I continued swinging, and kept kicking him. Weird dream, I know, but it definitely meant something. I told Heather, Rachel, and Julia, and this is what Heather said,
"Karissa, come on! Don't you realize it? You should be over him, because it is SO obvious that you hate his guts! This dream was a signal to MOVE ON." I said, "Yeah, that may be true..."
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Nov 4, 2005 17:44:45 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 4, 2005 17:44:45 GMT -5
I told Heather, Rachel, and Julia, and this is what Heather said, "Karissa, come on! Don't you realize it? You should be over him, because it is SO obvious that you hate his guts! This dream was a signal to MOVE ON." I said, "Yeah, that may be true..." Although now I realize that is anything but the truth. This morning, I got to school very very late, and when I got to English, there were only 2 seats left. And they were by the two people I really didn't want to sit by. Seat Choice A) Right by Alyssa, my ex-bff. I would be totally ignored and yeah... Seat Choice B) Right by Hondo, my ex-bf. It could be very awkward... Obviously I sat by Hondo though. I mean, how awkward could it be? All we were doing was watching a movie. (Raise You Voice-Hilary Duff: lol the boys in my class loved it ) Anyway...it was...kind of hilarious. ;D When I first sat down, I turned around since Heather and Melissa were behind me. I said, "Hey, you know how I broke my glasses yesterday? Well, I have contacts now!" They were like, "cool!" They started looking at my eyes to see if they could see if they could see them. *Apparently* Hondo overheard, because he said, "Cool, you got contacts! Can I see?" I said, "Whatever, but you really can't see them." Melissa said, "Yeah you can, or at last your eyes look shiny!" "I'm going to get pink contacts someday!", I said. "Cool!", said Hondo. "...of course, with my eye color, they'll *look* red." As we watched the movie it seemed he was flirting with me. I don't know though. But, I didn't think it would get awkward, of course, if you've ever seen Raise Your Voice, you know Terry and Jay kiss at one point. AWKWARD! It's kind of awkward for me to watch 2 people kiss while an ex-bf is RIGHT NEXT TO ME, if you know what I mean! Although, it was funny, because you could hear a ton of people (and by *people* I mean losers!) yelling out, "Get a room!" *lol*
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Nov 4, 2005 20:32:53 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 4, 2005 20:32:53 GMT -5
As I think about it, Hondo never *really* dated ME.
Who he dated was this...this poser who was pretending to be me, but really was this nice, shy little girl. If you really knew me, you would see that I am the exact opposite of that. I can be nice, but if I get mad, then you better look out! I'm very rude at times, and not even close to being shy. Of course, that girl is the person I show outside of school. At school, I'm that nice, shy little girl. But, this year, I've decided to be a *little* like the person I am at home. And, I mean, it's my fault that I never chose to show him the real me, but that's the thing. He never met ME. In fact, none of my friends did. I wonder if he liked the poser-that nice, shy little girl...or the real me.
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Nov 7, 2005 14:44:53 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 7, 2005 14:44:53 GMT -5
This weekend, I watched an episode of Friends, and it's not that I hadn't seen it before, but it's that I never payed attention to how much the episode related to me. It was "The One When Ross Finds Out", where Rachel is on a date with a guy, and all she can think about it Ross. Her date told her that all she needed to get over him was closure. (sp?) She did it by just telling him that she is over him, but I didn't think that would work for me. So, I decided to give him back the garnet (my birth stone) heart earings that he had given me almost 3 years ago, in December of 3rd grade. I couldn't find them, and I was going to just forget about the whole "closure" thing, but, luckily, I have a sister who knew where they were. (My 9 year old sister.) She said she would only tell me if I told her what I needed them for. I had no choice but to tell her. But, this is what I said after, "Okay, Taylor, you have to PROMISE you will not tell ANYONE. Not Baylee (Her bff), not Phoebe Anne, not Miranda, not even Quinn! (Quinn is my baby sister.)" She agreed. As I looked at them, I suddenly remembered the exact day I got them. It was around December 15th. Our class was in the library, and Hondo came up to me and handed me a little box. He said, "Your birthday's in January, right?" "Yeah", I said. "Don't open it until Christmas.", he replied. This morning, I got to school kind of late, and Hondo had come back to the locker just seconds after I arrived. I ignored him while I reached into my pocket and started thinking about what I should do. He said, "Are you mad at me or something?" I said, "No, but I have something for you." I reached back into my pocket and shoved them in his hand. He said, "Oh, are these the earings I got you?" I said, "Yeah." As I was about to go into English, he was handing them back to me. Confused, I said, "No. Give...give them to someone special." He said, "Oh. Okay." So yeah...I don't know what's going on...he kept bringing up the topic of the earings, and it confused me...
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Nov 8, 2005 1:17:48 GMT -5
Post by simoncamdenfan on Nov 8, 2005 1:17:48 GMT -5
You sure have a lot of dreams about Hondo. Sorry, I haven't been on in a while. Hondo does sound like he is a confusing boy.
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Nov 8, 2005 13:37:09 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 8, 2005 13:37:09 GMT -5
Oh yeah. He is! That's okay that you hadven't been on in awile. I know you're busy with your son and whatnot. Today, near the end of the day, he was telling me about some magician or something, and Julia and I were like, "It's funny how you think we're actually listening." Then Julia and went downstairs to go home. Hondo's really not the kind of person who gets mad at you, but I worry a lot, and I just hope he's NOT mad at Julia and I!
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Nov 9, 2005 1:35:58 GMT -5
Post by simoncamdenfan on Nov 9, 2005 1:35:58 GMT -5
I'm sure that he is probably not mad at you.
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Nov 9, 2005 13:35:16 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 9, 2005 13:35:16 GMT -5
Yeah, he wasn't. He kept looking at me today though, it freaked me out. But, he was nice when he was talking to me, so yeah. :-)
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Nov 11, 2005 13:33:39 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 11, 2005 13:33:39 GMT -5
Today, the funniest thing with him happened. I think I told you about Taylor, the most popular girl in 6th grade. Well, Hondo was [trying] to flirt with her. OMG, it was sooooooooooo hilarious!!!! She COMPLETELY, and I mean COMPLETELY ignored him!!! I wanted to say, "Man! He's like Ross in The One Where Ross Can't Flirt-except 10 times worse!" But, he was actually very very nice to me today. Usually he doesn't really talk to me during the day-he'll say "Karrie! You didn't beat me to the locker!" and that's about it. Also, he never says bye to me at the end of the day. But, today, he talked to me quite a bit today. When I left the locker he didn't say bye, but then I realized I forgot my sweatshirt, so I had to go back. I said, "Dude, I forgot my sweatshirt." I got it and after that he said, "Karrie-" I said, "Yeah?" He said, "Have a good weekend." I said, "Thanks...you too."
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Nov 18, 2005 18:49:32 GMT -5
Post by Ruthie Camden on Nov 18, 2005 18:49:32 GMT -5
I have absolutely NO news...I haven't been at school since Monday-I missed 4 days. My friend Autumn called to see how I was this afternoon, and she said that our friend Heather, had said, "I wonder where Karissa is! I hope she's okay, and she didn't die or something!" I do miss my friends sooo much! And, I do wonder what Hondo thought of me being gone for so long. I can just hear it in my mind..."Yeah, Karissa isn't here again today! I get the whole locker to myself! I hope she never comes back!" Hopefully he ISN'T thinking THAT... *lol*
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Nov 19, 2005 0:29:53 GMT -5
Post by simoncamdenfan on Nov 19, 2005 0:29:53 GMT -5
I'm sure he isn't thinking that. I just got back from a week vacation with my husband and son. It was nice. We stayed at a resort that was next to a beach with a lake. We enjoyed it.
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